There is an Anchor for our Soul & His
Heart for the World Compels ours to Move
ANCHOR & HEART
LEGACY LEAVER:
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Stef Grimsey
It’s crazy how quickly God has restored me, how easy it was for Him to open up a pathway for my dreams and passions again. He is the Guardian of dreams, the great Restorer and Healer.
In the second half of 2014 I separated from my husband. This was after only a year and half of marriage, which was not the usual story of marriage anyway. What followed over the next few months, for me personally was a very dark time of grief, doubt, anger, and isolation. I had invested all of my energy, prayer, and everything I was into this marriage and expected God to heal. So when it fell apart I was left with broken expectations and a reality that I couldn’t connect to.
I remember feeling overwhelming pain and grief; it would come in crippling waves, hitting me as I went through the motions of the day. When you allow yourself to spiral into that kind of darkness you become tormented by your own thoughts, you can’t even imagine being the person you used to be, and you even question the existence of a God you’ve always trusted before.
You see I had always been set on a particular course. Towards the end of high school I became interested in issues of social justice; wanting to work with impoverished communities to see freedom from poverty and slavery. I went to Africa, Cambodia and India to gain experience working in community development. I also studied a Bachelor of Social Science to further equip myself. But over the next few years I went from a place where I felt I had such a strong purpose, to a place where these dreams and desires of my heart seemed impossible to ever get back. I would cry out to God to remember me and all the plans I had. Eventually I just gave up and allowed myself to believe the lie that I would never be in a position to make an impact in the world.
But God is the guardian of dreams. He holds everything in His hands and doesn’t forget us, and who He created us to be. Even when we give up on ourselves, He never gives up on us!
A little while ago I stood on the beach and said, ‘God I’m ready. I’m ready for You to heal me, I’m ready to let the light in, I’m ready to believe the truth’. And since making that choice it has been the fastest journey of healing and restoration!
Every day is a choice, and yes pain doesn’t just vanish instantly, but through continually choosing His truth, I have been set free! I feel absolutely amazed at how He has taken away the depth of pain, and has exchanged it for a deep peace and joy. Not only has God done that but He has awakened the lion in me, the roar for change and social justice. I once again feel that burning desire to fight against the inequalities of this world. And God has just opened up doors for me.
Very shortly I leave for Chiang Rai, Thailand to volunteer with Destiny Rescue, an organisation that is dedicated to rescuing children out of human trafficking and sexual exploitation. I will be there for at least two years and will be working as a caseworker with the girls who have been rescued, helping them on their journey of healing and restoration back into the community. As I need to be fully self-funded for two years, this is a new journey of faith for me, especially for faith for God to provide as I leave behind everything.
I have already begun to see miraculous provision and can’t wait to see more! I just feel so blessed to have this opportunity to make a difference and learn from these girls who have experienced so much trauma. No pain is too great for God, no person is too far gone to restore, and no dream is too lost to bring back.
I thank God for my experiences, even the painful ones, because they have shaped me into a deeper understanding of people’s pain and the redemption of His Love. My heart is to see people alive at their, fullest, awakened to His presence, and overflowing in His joy. I thank God that He has done that in my life
and ...I am alive again!
I am free to run.
I am redeemed.
I am Stef
& I am a
#LegacyLeaver
"I would cry out to God to remember me and all the plans I had"
"But God is theGuardian of dreams"